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My Gran passed away after battling cancer for almost a year in 2000 and although I was only seven then, looking back, I didn’t get a chance to say the things that needed to be said. Clichéd yeah, If I had the chance I would have said all of it. But when your seven years old, death doesn’t exist and goodbyes are never forever. There’s a certain innocence that comes with being a kid, a naivety that I want back.

My Gran passed away after battling cancer for almost a year in 2000 and although I was only seven then, looking back, I didn’t get a chance to say the things that needed to be said. Clichéd yeah, If I had the chance I would have said all of it. But when your seven years old, death doesn’t exist and goodbyes are never forever. There’s a certain innocence that comes with being a kid, a naivety that I want back. Being able to hold onto the belief that dead isn’t gone forever, that it really is just a long nap. I would have said all of the things that needed to be said if I knew it was the last time I would see my gran, but I didn’t. I hope there is some form of “after life” where I can see her again, but in case there isn’t. I regret I didn’t make the effort to shut up and listen to what she was telling me, what she was teaching me. Although she’s gone, the legacy isn’t and I’m not gonna let that die.